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in about 24 hours and 6 minutes 2007 will have arrived. i have no idea where i'll be or with whom i'll be. just like last year, and all the years before.

i could let this depress me, or i could focus on all the good stuff that has happened in 2006. i won't go into that list right now . . . you're welcome.

but i must say, i believe that new year's eve has got to be the most depressing day of the year for all us unattached single folk. some people say it's valentine's day (mostly women) and they are partially right, but new year's eve is the time when you gather with friends to usher in the new year, and all the couples exchange those first kisses of the new year. all us single folks are left just sitting there feeling awkward.

this blog isn't supposed to be a rant on being single, however, as i've had a lot of free time since classes ended for winter break, i've been inundated with tons of those sappy, happy, chick flicks. you know the ones i'm talking about -- the movies where the guy and girl struggle through an hour or so of beating around the bush and end up professing their love right at the last minute. i read a book once that referred to these movies as "girl porn." now, let me explain what i mean -- "guy porn" plays to the eyes of men, while "girl porn" plays on the emotions of women; getting them all worked up over this emotional roller coaster of a film. what makes this so hard for both men and women is that it's not a realistic portrayal of life (i hope you already know this), and it messes with our heads.

most of my seminary peeps are gone for the holidays; everybody who lives here is doing family stuff; and i can't go home yet. this is all coming out a bit late, but i bring this up because all these movies (some i've seen before, others not) just make me feel even more lonely. they make me feel like a loser cause my life hasn't worked out like the movie. which is a load of crap.

and i realized something - God loves me. he has a plan for me. i have to trust him to work it out in his perfect timing. if i try to get involved, i'll screw it up for sure. it's hard, but i believe it's worth the wait. i recall Psalm 23, and i am comforted. i am not alone . . . God is always with me.

it's now closer to 23 hours and 28 minutes til 2007. i pray that you will remember that God is with you and he loves you very, very much. Happy New Year!

i hope some of that made sense.

randy